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导演｜亚历克斯·埃尔·达达
编剧｜亚历克斯·埃尔·达达
主演｜亚历克斯·埃尔·达达、纳德拉·阿萨夫、威廉·奥凯利、特蕾莎·克里斯蒂·阿布德
制片人｜亚历克斯·埃尔·达达、鲁迪·麦迪
摄影｜塔林·贝迪基安
类型｜戏剧
时长｜15分钟
完成时间｜2020年
对白语言｜黎巴嫩阿拉伯语
字幕｜英语
地区｜黎巴嫩（中东）
制片公司｜黎巴嫩美国大学（学生电影作品）
故事梗概
马雷克是一个出生在黎巴嫩封建家庭的年轻人。一直以来，他和自己梦中情郎的爱情生活都不被他人知晓。面对家族女族长的强烈反对，马雷克努力坚持自己的同性恋身份。她的反对和为维持“家族王朝”的决心最终破坏了二人的关系。马雷克和他爱人的希望、恐惧、渴望和欲望在一个爱而不得的超现实主义故事中展开。
导演介绍
亚历克斯·埃尔·达达是一名电影制作人和演员，目前居住在旧金山湾区。他最著名的作品是《ÃH》（2020），是一部由他执导并出演的获奖短片。他还参与了表演、制作设计等工作，并在市场营销领域担任数字营销制作人和编辑的工作。他在办公室工作了一年之后，决定更专注于自己的艺术实践，并开始探索其他媒介。于是，他报名参加了旧金山艺术学院的工作室艺术的研究生课程。他的作品总是充满了对自我的反思和个性化特征，尤其关注祖先、酷儿、身份和罪恶感等主题。
导演阐述
我生于一个黎巴嫩家庭，对我来说，因为性取向而被排挤早已是习以为常的事。有一次，我的亲戚发现了我的同性恋关系并羞辱了我，从那以后，我便觉得我必须对我的家人隐瞒我的同性恋身份。然而，保守秘密的挫败感是如此强烈，我甚至开始觉得自己的情绪已经接近奔溃的边缘。我的生活一分为二，一边是和爱人在一起的幸福，而另一边则是在家时的绝望和边缘感。
故事的性质和展开的事件链让我很自然地将情节设定在20世纪50年代。在我的村子里，人们仍然活在封建制度的记忆中，我的家人仍然紧抓所谓的“家族王朝的荣誉”不放。有时，我会觉得，虽然我出生于1998年，但我被困在了20世纪50年代。
这部电影是超现实主义和历史戏剧的试验性融合，旨在传达爱与接纳的信息。马雷克是我的另一个自我，他通过他的梦升华了他的痛苦，而我通过这部电影升华了我的激情。
Director｜Alex El Dahdah
Screenwriter｜Alex El Dahdah
Cast｜Alex El Dahdah, Nadra Assaf, William Okaily, Teresa Kristi Abboud
Producer｜Alex El Dahdah, Roody Madi
Cinematographer｜Taline Bedikian
Genre｜Drama
Length｜15min
Year｜2020
Dialogue｜Lebanese Arabic
Subtitles｜English
Region｜Lebanon (Middle East)
Production Company｜Lebanese American University (Student Film)
Synopsis
Malek, a young man born into a Lebanese feudalist family, is living a secret love story with the man of his dreams. Facing fierce opposition from the matriarch landowner of the family, Malek strives to hold onto his own identity. Her disapproval and determination to maintain “our dynasty” effectively destroy the relationship. The hopes, fears, longings, and desires of Malek and his lover unfold in a surrealist tale of frustrated love.
Director Biography
Alex El Dahdah is a filmmaker and performer currently based in the Bay Area. His most known work is ÃH (2020), an award-winning short film he directed and performed in. He has also participated in several works as a performer and production designer and worked in the field of marketing as a digital producer and content writer. After a year of working in an office, he decided to focus more on his art practice and explore other mediums by enrolling in the graduate studio arts program at the San Francisco Art Institute. His work is always self-reflective and personal and focuses on themes of ancestry, queerness, identity, and guilt.
Director’s Statement
Lebanese family, it wasn’t a surprise to me to be rejected for my sexuality. After my relative discovered my relationship and shamed me for it, I felt I had to hide it from the rest of my family. The frustration of keeping it secret was so intense that it started to feel as if I was emotionally imploding. My life became a dichotomy between the bliss I felt with my lover and the despair and denial I went through when I was at home.
The nature of my story and the chain of events that unfolded made it natural for me to situate the plot in the 1950s. In my village, people still live in their memory in the feudalist system, and my family explicitly still holds tight onto what they would call “the honor of our dynasty.” It sometimes makes me feel that I, myself, born in 1998, am trapped in the 1950s.
This film is an experimental blend of surrealism and historical drama, offering a message of both love and acceptance. Malek, my alter ego, sublimated his pain through his dreams, and I have sublimated my passion through this film.