I HAVE HIV, BUT

Ta普通的一天是这样开始的——早晨从梦中醒来，飞奔去公司。上班摸鱼，下班健身，三点一线每天打卡，穿梭其中的，是时不时脑中幻想一下和心动对象（crush）的甜蜜剧情。一切都非常平凡，除了每天只比别人多出的一个固定步骤：吃HIV抗病毒药物，在日历上打勾。正是这个小小的步骤，在ta和周围人之间竖起了一堵无形的透明“围墙”，一堵由可能的“恐惧”和“不理解”堆砌而成的坚固围墙。因为这堵墙的存在，ta想和大家站在一起的平常渴望显得有些遥不可及，即便别人从不知晓它。表面世界的缤纷日常，与他围墙之内的漫长四季，拉开了寂寞的张力。墙内无声的ta，心里总有一句未曾说出口过的呐喊：“可不可以别放手？” 还好，有另一个ta伸出手，打破了屏障，陪着ta一步步走出来，拥抱世界，好好生活。在无常与如常之间，其实，ta也不算特别。

Their ordinary day starts like this—waking from dreams in the morning and rushing to the office. They slack off at work, hit the gym after hours, and clock in their routine every day, punctuated by sweet daydreams about their crush. It’s all very ordinary, except for one additional step they take daily: taking HIV antiretroviral medication and marking it on the calendar. This small step erects an invisible “wall” between them and others, built from potential fear and misunderstanding. Because of this wall, their usual desire to stand with everyone else seems somewhat unattainable, even though no one else knows it exists. The colorful routine of the external world contrasts with the lengthy seasons within their wall, creating a lonely tension. Inside the wall, in silence, they always have an unspoken cry in their heart, “Will you still hold my hand?” Fortunately, there’s another who reaches out, breaking the barrier, accompanying them step by step to embrace the world and live well. Between the impermanence and the mundane, they are, in fact, not that different.

导演：大脑
编剧：苾湉、火火
制片人：杜杜
摄影：大脑、马德发
类型：定格动画
时长：4分10秒
完成时间：2023年
对白语言：汉语普通话
地区：中国
制片公司：白鹿合唱团

Director: Kida
Screenwriter: Yulia, Alma
Producer: Dudu
Cinematographer: Kida, Ma Defa
Genre: Stop-motion animation
Length: 4min10s
Year: 2023
Dialogue: Mandarin Chinese
Region: China
Production Company: Bailu Chorus

大脑，一个向往性别多元社会最终建立成功的自然人。目前尝试通过各种方式的影像表达探索人和人人和世界人和宇宙之间的联系。

Kida is a person who yearns for the eventual establishment of a gender-diverse society. Currently, she is exploring the connections between people, the world, and the universe through various forms of visual expression.

HIV是一个在大家看来有点沉重和不敢谈及的话题，以至于大多数人对HIV携带者有深深的误会。所以我们这次采用了欢快的编曲和演唱方式、明亮俏皮的定格动画形式，来讲述了一名HIV携带者和其他上班族无异的普通的一天，期望通过乐观和热爱生活的ta的视角传递出这样的理念：HIV携带者除了携带病毒，在其他方面和大家没有区别，正常交往不会将病毒传染给他人，ta们本也应享受交朋友的快乐，进入人群中和大家站一起。我们希望通过这部小动画和音乐，逐步减少人们对HIV携带者的偏见。

HIV is often seen as a heavy and taboo topic, leading to deep misunderstandings about those living with the virus. Therefore, we have used a cheerful arrangement and singing style, combined with bright and playful stop-motion animation, to depict an ordinary day in the life of someone living with HIV—no different from any other office worker. By showcasing the perspective of this optimistic and vibrant individual, we aim to highlight that, apart from living with HIV, people are just like anyone else. Normal interactions do not transmit the virus, and individuals living with HIV deserve to enjoy the same social experiences as anyone else, including the pleasure of making friends and the right to stand together with others. We hope that this animation and music will help to reduce people’s prejudices against those living with HIV.